I can't help it...
I'm a product of the '80's/'90's
My distress is most identifiable
in electronica & big hair bands....
I've emptied my soul of fears these last few days
...rivers streaming down my cheeks
blackened streams of mascara wasteland
landing where laugh lines once lay
Yep, I lay it on pretty thick
(mascara & melancholy alike)
I purged it by making this...
I think it's out of my system
I pray it's gone to bed for now
I will fear the fear
Sorry for the dramatics but I've been so down this week I don't which way is up.
I'm hoping it's just all the medicines I'm on & blaming it on the dizziness.
Maybe my soul is just telling me I need to rest, take a breath & show some gratitude??
Or perhaps it's telling me to face my fears & see that I will still be standing regardless of which decision I make or turn I take.
That vintage handkerchief is the first thing I have embroidered since my grandmother (Mama Lou) passed away almost 5yrs ago. She taught me everything I know about sewing & I think I was paralyzed with fear that if I had forgotten how to embroider I would have lost a piece of her.
My hands shook threading the needle.
I prayed each stitch.
I didn't realize I was holding my breath
until I finished the first letter & let it out with a big whoosh.
One Fear Defeated!
I'm ready for the next!!
*Thanks for listening!*
You Birds & your kind words make my heart flutter!
PS: The movie Everbody's Fine is NOT a comedy !!
(just in case you picked it up & thought you'd watch a funny flick to feel better but then you end up crying even harder than you were before) :)
PPS: I snuck a few more goodies into the shop when you weren't looking :)
~~Diva Dream Catcher No3~